Somewhere Out There

PART 1: BLAKE

“Hey, Blake!”

Kiel called on my back, but I didn’t turn to look at him. I can’t. Instead, I walked fast the hallway, passing a big crowd of student, seniors and juniors, who were talking about the JS prom, the best day of a senior’s life. Everyone seemed excited. Except me. I was not excited at the prospect of dating Jessica on the prom at all. I was wondering what was wrong with me. Of course, I really know what’s wrong with me. But I just can’t take and accept it. I want Jess. I want Jess, I kept repeating these words in my head. I want Jess.

I turned towards the locker room. I walked in and shut the door behind me even harder than what was necessary. I unlocked my locker and tossed a pile of books inside when I heard the door squeaked open. I didn’t turn to know that it’s Kiel. I knew he’d follow. He’s always like that. But this time, I really didn’t know if I wanted him here.

“You have a problem,” he said and it was not a question. He always knew if I have a problem or none. He knows me well. And every time I opened up to him, he always manages to make me feel better. He’s like an angel. Yeah, an angel. He’s my angel. Jeez. What am I talking about?

“Blake?” he whispered, his left hand resting on my left shoulder. His voice was always happy. He’s always gay. Of course, he’s a gay, I knew. His voice is always boosting me with happiness, just like every time he flashes me those smiles that revealed a perfect white teeth. He’s a comforter. Of course, he’s my best friend. Yes. Best friend. He’s only my best friend. Only best friend, I kept on reminding myself. And we should not cross that border because it’s just…shameful. “What’s your problem?”

“You!” I said with hardness on my voice. I shook off his hand on my shoulder and leaned my head on the locker. I felt like crying. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, fighting hard the tears that threatened to escape from my close lids.

“Me?” he said and I knew his merging his brows in the middle. I pictured him out on my head. “What’s happened?” his voice was curios. I opened my eyes, telling myself to do the right thing. “Why me?”

I took a deep breath before I turned to face him. He met my gaze with those warm and loving blue eyes. I suddenly felt ashamed as I think of the next thing I planned to do.

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